Resolutions

Happy New Year!

So i weighed myself today and it looks as though i have put back on the 5 pounds i managed to loose great!!! My Resolution this year is no more crap it covers a broad spectrum. So it turns out there is not a weight restriction for imigration to canada I do apologise my husband felt the need to make it up in order to motivate me. Again sorry's all around it is embarissing. It did help in stressing me out though. Well I am going to have a better yer this year i guarantee it!! Hope you all had a great holiday season back to work tomorrow. Hope you guys didn't put on too much weight.

It's been a while

I haven't written not because i have felt guilty but because i have been in a funk. I wont bother to spell check this so sorry. For the last two days i have been trying to do my diest and have suceeded to loose a few pounds i did however have a cheese burger and a small fri from mcd's. Also a cigarette today i call it the stresses of being married though i think i balanced it out with the amount of calories eaten today so its ok. I have been tired and stressed out. My father in law will be here for christmas next week :-( I spent the last of my money on christmas shopping. I've been busy at work and like i said in a funk. I have made it to the gym more often which is great I just thought i'd give you all a little update now I'm off to bed. If i don't write again before christmas I hope everyone has a very happy holiday season!!

Hi so this is what i did this weekend

I have been in such an odd mood. I had a F the world kinda attitude on Saturday morning where I have been listening to Nickelback Rockstar I don't know why I just Love that song. Thanksgiving wasn't so bad I controlled myself I didn't even put on a pound so I'm Please with that. I met with my physio therapist last week about my knee she wants me to do 3 days of cardio for 20 minutes no more and no less. Because of my fybromyalgia consistency is important for me. She said I can do my boxing if i Don't push myself. I went to the gym twice yesterday and today for my 20min each of cardio. I did some weights too and starting to feel achy it's not even 9 and I think I'm going to call it a night. I had a comment from someone who said that me trying to loose 40 pounds in two months is crazy. I would like to say I agree it is crazy but it's necessary. I want to move to Canada and this is my option because i slacked off I knew I would have a medical but this is all the time I left myself and I will be damned if I don't loose that weight!! So I'm proud of me for going to the gym I have been fairly good I have denied myself cake twice I have had a few small treats but have limited myself and will continue to do so. Well I hope everyone had a good holiday now I need to prepare myself for Christmas it's right around the corner!!

40 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS

OK THIS IS GOING TO SOUND CRAZY BUT I HAVE TO LOOSE ABOUT 40 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. WE FOUND OUT FOR IMMIGRATION THERE IS A WEIGHT LIMIT ANT ITS 252 POUNDS. SO HERE I GO I BETTER START GETTING MY CRAP TOGETHER OTHERWISE MY HUSBAND WILL BE GOING TO CANADA WITHOUT ME AND I WILL BE STUCK HERE. ITS DEPRESSING BUT I'M GOING TO DO IT NO MATTER HOW I DO IT IT WILL BE DONE!!!!! GOD SAVE ME!!!

Exercising

So you all know I was/am doing the south beach diet. I am finding it hard to go back and do no carbs (i mean bread pasta and rice the good tasting ones). Thanksgiving is this week I am determined not to pig out seeing as I am the one cooking I should be able to control some aspects of that. So you can see I posted a new weight. I was sick as noted in a previous blog and was told by the doctors to eat some carbs like bread and rice to help with the stomach problem. Since I fell off the wagon lol I haven't started again. Though I have been controlling the portions and to some extent what I eat. For example last week i bought a bar of kit kats it comes with four sticks i ate 2 of the sticks. Do you know how many calories are in one bar?? Something like 200+. I decided it wasn't worth eating 4 to have up to 800 calories on something that wasn't going to make me full i could eat like 15plates of vegetables for that amount lol. I also went to the coffee shop and got this chocolate twist pastry thing and i gave half of it to my friend (who knew i could share food?) and I got a little treat of shortbread and what are those hard things that look like cookies called again. Well the point is I only had one of each and that was on Saturday and I still have the whole pack left. Since stopping the diet like 3weeks ago I have still maintained a 5pound weight loss. Though I have gained 5 back that's expected. I will be doing the two weeks again and I pray for my stomach not to be sick again.

This weekend I went to a cardio kick boxing class. I did it very low impact and found myself unable to breath. I was so embarrassed that i couldn't do everything they were they were jumping over benches and doing loads of steps. But at the end I had a few people come up to me and say good job. Maybe it's better to see a fat person at the gym then any where else. At least they know I am trying. My shirt kept rising up too and i kept trying to pull it down to cover the fat roll. Needless to say If I can get my ass out of bed next Saturday morning I will go again. Oh and I am still aching. It hurts to sit, walk,stand, move my arms!! The motto from the US Marines is 'Pain is Weakness Leaving the Body' That's what i tell myself. I sweat like crazy too. Now just to loose some more. My father in law is coming for Christmas and I know he already thinks badly of me because I'm fat so I have to loose weight because last time he saw me i was 30 pounds lighter then I am now. I would also like to be able to wear some nice stuff especially the clothes I already have but my weight outgrew. I expect everyone else to post honest blogs during the Holidays so I don't feel all left alone. I will post again later this week. Bye

Ok

So I was going to start back on the diet yesterday but realised we had no healthy food in the house. Seeing as I don't drive I have made a list for him to go to the store today to get some healthy stuff. I am going to do two weeks of Phase 1 of Sb Diet again because I'm a pig and ate a whole cheesecake this weekend and feel guilty for it. I'm sure I put back on some of the weight. After eating what at the time looked like appealing cheese cake. My stomach hurt I felt bloated and well I threw up. I didn't eat the whole thing at one time obviously. Toast doesn't have the same appeal as it once had I still Love bread but it's not the same. I have done better at monitoring my intake and not over eating things which is an Improvement. I feel Like I'm loosing some of my readers I haven't gotten very many comments. Thanks to you guys who do comment though. Yesterday I but a pair of Jeans from Lane Bryant They were the baby phat ones the looked so good so I got them and I got them in a size 20 at the moment that is wish full thinking. However when i can fit into them I will put up a picture. We are going out for dinner tonight. Tomorrow I start again. I have to loose that weight for the medical exam for Canada. No more games, It's serious for my health and for my life. I didn't make it to the gym. My physical therapy on my knee starts Monday so hopefully that will help. I think I am getting a cold you know when of those chest colds ugh!!! Well I hope everyone is doing well. Be strong during thanksgiving!! Have a Happy Holiday to all my American Readers. I'm trying to decide if i should make a chicken for thanksgiving seeing as I'm celebrating it in England!!

I feel like Crap

UGH I hate having a permanent illness. I feel like crap. I have done absolutly nothing today. I have no excuse for eating fattening food like potatoe augratton or cheese cake before you know it I will just put on the 10 pounds I lost plus some. I havent even eaten proper meals today just snacking because I'm to achy to stand in front of the stove and stir. I do realise when I am doing the diet that I am not actualy on a no carb diet it is the low carb diet. I just hope I can get my butt to do the last week of phase two on the south beach diet. I fail because I have no will power!!! I am telling myself I will start again tomorrow. Now this is really sad but I am off to bed even though it's not even 5pm yet. It's time for some sleep!!!