Wednesday, April 21, 2010

60 min of Cardio

So I stepped up my game ... 60 min of Cardio burning over 500 calories. 30 min elliptical 30 min bike. It's killer. I keep getting this pain on the right side of my stomach. I need to find that xray paper my doctor gave me lol before I collapse or something bah! If it's not one thing it's the next. I'm sure it cant be an organ it must be like a muscle or hernia or something i don't know. Hurts like a mother tho and I've made bruises from pushing so hard where it hurts. It will not stop me!! I'm on a mission. 258.2 td. ... 31 pounds to go by July 30th. I can do this!

So some guy at a pub wanted me this weekend. That was a first. It was so funny. I got this new purple halter top. I walked past these guy and one said I wonder how much she paid for those. I said to my roommate was that guy talking about my tits she's like i thought he was talking about my pants. I was like why would he be talking about your pants??! Any way so this other guy was staring at our table again my roommate noticed cause me i think everyone stares lol. I was like who's he looking at she's like i don't know. Turns out he was looking at me. So i ask the waitress to give him a note with my e-mail. Guy e-mails me and wants to hook up. Seeing as that's not the kinda girl I am, I shot him down. However this NEVER happens to me and I was flattered lol.

So I'm going to this club on Sat with my girls and I'm thinking about asking this guy if he wants to come casually but i'm such a retarded spaz, I don't know if he'll come or not. He's the cutie that works at my gym. Can't hurt to try right. I mean how are people supposed to make new friends?? This world is so complicated!! No smoking I've done awesome. Still losing weight. Still moody as fuck. Had a dream i kicked someones ass with a lunch tray last night lol. Can we say fucked!! I don't even know anymore. So stoked about going out sat woot party and my new outfit is hot especially since i fit into my old jeans! A little self conscious about my new top. I was going to buy a little half cardigan but i cant afford it. Seriously hoping my tax return comes before friday. Oh and I lost my job last fri. Lovely :( I was supposed to be on a leave of absence for medical reasons. Tossers, I don't even know what their reason Is i just got some paper with random numbers on it. My friend had to explain it to me grr!

Whatever ... Summers almost here and it's going to be awesome cause I LOVE THE SUN !!! CAUSE I'M A SUMMER CHILD YO! Yah i'm a loser whatevs peace out

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Mood Swings are further pissing me off

Depressing people are depressing me further. Last week I was in a pretty great mood. I've hardly missed going to the gym which is awesome. It's cheering me up. Exercise is making me feel good. I mean don't get me wrong still in soo much pain. Right now I'm dying, it hurts so bad. I'm trying to motivate myself to get out of bed to go to the gym, that and pick up some fruit is all I have to do today. Also trying to avoid smoking today. Which I can already tell is going to be a challenge. I've already managed to annoy my best friend. Which is fine. He's been just as moody as I have, so I'm just going to brush it off he'll get over it and so will I. It's how we work. I'm just pissy about it at the moment.

I'm in one of those moods where i want to flick everyone in the forehead and I haven't even seen a single person today lol. The idea of it makes me smile tho lol. I talked to this hot guy who works at the gym. Nice guy. I've been told I'm going to his step class tho I made it clear I HATE STEP! Prepare for a miserable me in your step class I'll go but I wont like it lol. He's lucky he's hot. It's more the fact that step is difficult for me and pushing me out of my comfort zone. It'll be embarrassing, but it's me and I never give up when something is difficult. I have a goal and I'll get there. Plus think thighs of steel lol. Long way to go but i'll get there.

Monday, April 5, 2010

T- 50 Pounds YAY!!

So I Finally lost 50 pounds 263 YAY. 35 pounds to go and I'm at the weight I was before I got married. I'm officially divorced. Weight off my shoulder. Granted I'm broke as fuck so behind in bills and living in denial so i can keep my sanity. Haha. However the fact that I have managed to achieve this goal is a big thing and it will help my health which will over all help me live longer. I went to see an occupational therapist about stress management so I don't freak out on people and have emotional break downs. I'll see her again.

I haven't been up to too much except concentrating on weight loss. I have guys on the brain. Of course. I wish I was psychic and could mind read it would make life so much easier. I would go more into depth but i don't know who's reading this these days and I seem to have gotten slightly more paranoid lol. I also think i'm losing my marbles and may be going slightly insane but seeing as all my friends are losing their minds too I feel ok about it haha they said it not me. I'm starting to loosen up a bit and I'm optimistic. No matter what seems to go wrong in my life something is going to go right because it's life and I can't do shit about it!! So cheers let's drink to that weather it be water or a shot!!