Sunday, October 31, 2010

What a year...

A year ago I was such a completly different person then I am now. What a crazy year it's been, but I worked my ass off. I'm halfway to my final goal weight. Hell Yah! And damn I think I'm looking pretty good. I'd date me lol.

This time last year I had taken a break from Jamie, I met Brad and then Jamie came back. That was confusing. I just left my job for medical reasons.

This time this year... new career path, getting healthy. New men and women in my life. New friends ... Lets see what the next year has in store for me ... stay tuned

Sunday, October 24, 2010

"I'm not the type to get my heart broken.. I'm not the type to get upset and cry.. Cause I never leave my heart open.. Never hurts me to say goodbye"

So let's update.

I hit 236 this week. 9 pounds till i hit my goal of 85lbs and 23 till I hit my 100lb mark. HELL YEAH!! My morning workouts this week freaking rocked. I ran on the treadmill at a speed of 6.2. I have to do intervals because I haven't figured out how to run and breath at the same time. No joke. I try breathing but I'm not getting enough air. Oh and I was advised to run barefoot, it works man so much easier except the blisters the treadmill gives you. I also did my pilates class on Fri. I love my job. My friend was there working out with her other friend on the bike. I was walking to the front desk for something. So I went over to her and checked out the resistance she was doing on the bike. Hahaha I'm such an ass hole. "You're not going hard enough" So of course I pushed the button to up her resistance. She thought that working on the bike was only for her legs. I had to explain that it obviously helps tone your legs but it's cardio which causes u to loose weight. She didn't know that so she upped her resistance even more lol. I love helping people.

Guess who fit into her goal jeans today WOOT WOOT! I think they'll fit even better when I hit the 85lb mark. I've had these baby phat jeans for forever. I bought them knowing they wouldn't fit and I kept them cause I knew I would be able to fit into them.

Tim, I like him but not sure if were just fb's or what?! Seeing how it goes. He's supposed to be round tn. Bound to be good times.

I actually went out with this chick yesterday. She's beautiful and we clicked. Love when that happens. Easy to talk to, we have a lot in common. We'll be hanging out again. Actually tomorrow lol.

I went to dinner party at a friends house Fri it consisted of The doctor who delivered her baby and the nursing staff. It was pretty cool. I made some new friends. Got invited to another party. My friend gave me the whiskey they brought her cause she doesn't drink. LOVE FREE WHISKEY. On Friday everyone at work gave me their number. We were gunna go dancing at the cage. Love that place. Only the one on Heritage tho, the one off 16th is gay. This girl at work is gunna teach me more dance moves. She used to be pro. So I'm stoked. The benefit of being such a nice person is that everyone wants to kick it with me.

The girl yesterday. She's like I'm good at reading people and you're very easy going. Ok I gotta go. I have to meet some old friends today can't wait. I'm still happy and I'm not tripping over dudes anymore. I expect them to leave, the one that sticks around that'll be a surprise.

Monday, October 18, 2010

To My Readers

HOLY SHIT! I just looked at the stats for my blog and it's been viewed all over the world. Thanks for reading guys you're awesome! I love comments so feel free!!! LOL

Sunday, October 17, 2010

I'm surprisingly really happy

So this week in review lol from what I can remember anyway.

I hit 237 this week 76lbs gone. Woohoo! I also fit into xl adidas yoga pants and they looked good. One of the girls at work goes in at 7 to get her workout in. She wants me to start going with her to motivate her. I could use a push too. What this means is I'll be going to bed even earlier then before. I need a lot of sleep to be able to function properly.

I got a call from a family member at 4am this week. If you don't believe in 6th senses then stop reading. A few of us in my family have the gift of premonitions they come in dreams. I've done it before; predicted things before they happened. I usually tell someone and forget about it till it happens. Last year I told a colleague I was working with that she would be leaving this job and working at a bar again. She was like yah right ... she ended up at a bar again. I had a dream about a hanging and I told one of my old cop roommates and she had gone to a hanging that night. There are other incidents but its whatevs. Anyway so I got a call in the middle of the night telling me they had a dream about my grandma passing away this year, her lungs will fail her. Of course I was really upset to hear that cause last time she had a dream my grandpa died. I haven't been able to see my grandma in a few years and I wish I could spend more time with her. I also wish I could spend more time with my mom. It's been about a 1 1/2 since I've seen her.

I went and stopped by one of my cop friends houses this week. My ex is still friends with them and stops round on occasion. Her husband hadn't seen me in a really long time so it was prob a shock how different I look. She saw me and she was like OMG it's half an Elli.

You know what bugs me. When people say they want to loose weight and then don't really do anything about it. You're not fat for no reason. You're fat because u eat unhealthy and don't get enough exercise. Believe me I've been in the denial stage, it took me a long time to get over it and to get my ass in gear. My mom has gained weight again. It makes me sad because she went through a gastric bypass and she's gaining weight back again. She almost died having that surgery. I love her and I want her to be healthy and happy. I told myself if I get into a relationship and I gain more then 15lbs then I'm obviously unhappy and need to dump the guy lol. I'm not eating out of depression or boredom again. I won't even let myself gain 15lbs I never let myself gain more then 5 before I kick my own ass into gear. My roommate he said to me ln he's like "you look really good whatever you're doing keep doing it. You should walk out of this house feeling 100% confident about the way you look." Of course that made me feel really good especially since I just fit into my size 20 jeans. I knew I'd get to wear them again ^_^.

I've had the urge to pray this week. I'm not really religious. I don't know if there's a god but I have hope that when I pray I'm not just talking to myself. I'm more spiritual. I want to find a meditation centre. I've been in a lot of pain lately.

I've been giving out my diet plan. Everyone is happy about that. I went to a party last night the first party not the second one. I got like 4 different invites last night cause I'm popular like that. They were watching what I was eating. It made me laugh. I'm like a spokes person for weight loss. I actually talked to this chick at work and got the name of her plastic surgeon. She had a tummy tuck and I'm getting loose skin already and I haven't even finished my weight loss. I figured If I get a consult right now on a tummy tuck and breast lift then I know what I need to strive for financially and physically. After I'm finished I really just want to look beautiful and normal. I know I am beautiful but the idea of have a flat stomach is very appealing to me.

I saw Tim ^_^ he let me keep his lighter. He's awesome, I like him, hope he sticks around. I have the biggest smile after I've seen him.

Today is my sweet little nephews bday. Nephew through friendship I'm known as Auntie Elli. He's gunna be 2 today. I got to help with my kids in the nursery this week, for a little bit. They make me happy. I love hanging with the kids. It's fascinating to watch them grow and develop.

Anyway I'm going to go and enjoy the rest of my weekend. You all have a good day.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Canadian Thanksgiving

I am thankful for happiness and the people who love me.

I cook every year for people that dont really have family here. So what's on the menu today.

Mashed potatoes
cranberry sauce
corn and green beans

One of my supposed friends were supposed to come for dinner but as usual she tripped out cause I got whipped cream instead of cool whip. I'm tempted to call her some kind of rude name but i'll bite my tongue. I'm done with her bs.

I'm having dinner with my roommate, I invited the neighbors and some other friends. It doesn't really matter who shows up. It's gunna be good food.

Tim spent the night with me Saturday. It was awesome. I got a text at like 1:30am and of course this one song was going through my head: "Cause if u callin at 2 in the morning it only means one thing, booty call boo boo booty call." Fuck my life lol.

Anyway. He came over we chilled and talked for a bit. He's good to talk to. Every man I've met born in '87 are pretty f'd in the head. Lets hope that's not the case with him. It was seriously awesome tho. He spent the night. He fell asleep with me in his arms. We cuddled, in the morning he pulled me in close. We got dressed which was pretty pointless, cause we just ended up undressed again lmao. Guess I looked sexy in that outfit haha. He looked sooo hot. He totally made me laugh telling me about how he asked his buddy if his outfit looked gay, and I was like dude u look hot. :)I invited him to thanksgiving dinner but I don't think he's gunna come. "Booty call boo boo booty call" LMAO who the fuck knows. He did get a little wound up when I walked to the bathroom in my panties. "Do u always walk around with no top on?" me "No, he just left for work" him "what if he forgot his keys?" I shrugged it off. Then I got a text from him saying "don't lock the door I forgot my keys" irony's a bitch and I laughed. If only he knew I tan topless on Holidays in Europe LMFAO.

Anyway Happy Canadian Thanksgiving everyone hahaha

Sunday, October 3, 2010

"He's out there ... He's just with all the wrong women"

Soooo I met this guy named Tim :P There is no competition between him and any of the other men who've been in my life. He blew them all out of the water. I don't even think Brad stands a chance against this one. Not like he plans on making a come back anyway haha. He's bigger built, kinda like Brads body type but more muscular. Probably because of the kind of work he does. Blonde hair blue eyes. He kinda reminds me of the dude from nip tuck Dylan Walsh. Ok really just the eyes are similar lol. I had a great time with him. He came over and we chilled in the afternoon. Watched part of a movie, drank some of my JD, we talked and such lol ... OMG Step Brothers is hilarious. I haven't even finished the movie yet but he's letting me borrow it which is sweet. He loved the back massage I gave him. I got one in return lol, like I'm gunna give out free massages (I'm the best). He said we have to do this again and I got the hugest hug. Loved it. I bet he could pick me up :P

It was just so easy with him. I've never had that. Simple, I wasn't nervous, he's good to talk to and the conversation just flowed. He has a sweet truck. My roommate thought he was cute too lol. Oh and he introduced himself to my roommate which I thought was polite and shook his hand. We have a lot of random things in common. I have a cork board in my room it's all my travels and adventures. He was looking at it. Saw the ticket to the stamps game I went to on Canada day and he said "that's weird I was sitting a row behind you at the game I went to yest"

If for some reason I don't see him again at least I got a dvd and a massage out of the deal haha. But as usual I hope I do. He's got some fun hobbies I wouldn't mind trying out.

My cat was just licking a green tea, tea bag. She's such a weirdo.

I'm saving for works Christmas party. I've heard it's wild. I want to wear a little red dress. I already have a date for it. Tho If I'm seeing someone I'll bring them with me instead. It's already been discussed.

The benefits of being the administrator I get to order shit. There is this blue hoodie I really wanted, we don't carry it anymore but I get to order it in for myself. Woot Woot! It's this beautiful blue color I love it. I'm already striving towards a new position that will be available in say a little under nine months lol. I've already talked to my boss about it and she said we can work towards it. Fingers crossed, It would be a wicked position.

Back to work tm. Don't think I can do Bodyflow or Pilates this week unless I talk to my Manager and ask her if I could do my last hour after the class. I'm working extra hours this week training someone, yay I'm important. I love my work uniform it's awesome.

"He's out there. He's just with all the wrong women" ps I love you. I think it's true.