Sunday, October 17, 2010

I'm surprisingly really happy

So this week in review lol from what I can remember anyway.

I hit 237 this week 76lbs gone. Woohoo! I also fit into xl adidas yoga pants and they looked good. One of the girls at work goes in at 7 to get her workout in. She wants me to start going with her to motivate her. I could use a push too. What this means is I'll be going to bed even earlier then before. I need a lot of sleep to be able to function properly.

I got a call from a family member at 4am this week. If you don't believe in 6th senses then stop reading. A few of us in my family have the gift of premonitions they come in dreams. I've done it before; predicted things before they happened. I usually tell someone and forget about it till it happens. Last year I told a colleague I was working with that she would be leaving this job and working at a bar again. She was like yah right ... she ended up at a bar again. I had a dream about a hanging and I told one of my old cop roommates and she had gone to a hanging that night. There are other incidents but its whatevs. Anyway so I got a call in the middle of the night telling me they had a dream about my grandma passing away this year, her lungs will fail her. Of course I was really upset to hear that cause last time she had a dream my grandpa died. I haven't been able to see my grandma in a few years and I wish I could spend more time with her. I also wish I could spend more time with my mom. It's been about a 1 1/2 since I've seen her.

I went and stopped by one of my cop friends houses this week. My ex is still friends with them and stops round on occasion. Her husband hadn't seen me in a really long time so it was prob a shock how different I look. She saw me and she was like OMG it's half an Elli.

You know what bugs me. When people say they want to loose weight and then don't really do anything about it. You're not fat for no reason. You're fat because u eat unhealthy and don't get enough exercise. Believe me I've been in the denial stage, it took me a long time to get over it and to get my ass in gear. My mom has gained weight again. It makes me sad because she went through a gastric bypass and she's gaining weight back again. She almost died having that surgery. I love her and I want her to be healthy and happy. I told myself if I get into a relationship and I gain more then 15lbs then I'm obviously unhappy and need to dump the guy lol. I'm not eating out of depression or boredom again. I won't even let myself gain 15lbs I never let myself gain more then 5 before I kick my own ass into gear. My roommate he said to me ln he's like "you look really good whatever you're doing keep doing it. You should walk out of this house feeling 100% confident about the way you look." Of course that made me feel really good especially since I just fit into my size 20 jeans. I knew I'd get to wear them again ^_^.

I've had the urge to pray this week. I'm not really religious. I don't know if there's a god but I have hope that when I pray I'm not just talking to myself. I'm more spiritual. I want to find a meditation centre. I've been in a lot of pain lately.

I've been giving out my diet plan. Everyone is happy about that. I went to a party last night the first party not the second one. I got like 4 different invites last night cause I'm popular like that. They were watching what I was eating. It made me laugh. I'm like a spokes person for weight loss. I actually talked to this chick at work and got the name of her plastic surgeon. She had a tummy tuck and I'm getting loose skin already and I haven't even finished my weight loss. I figured If I get a consult right now on a tummy tuck and breast lift then I know what I need to strive for financially and physically. After I'm finished I really just want to look beautiful and normal. I know I am beautiful but the idea of have a flat stomach is very appealing to me.

I saw Tim ^_^ he let me keep his lighter. He's awesome, I like him, hope he sticks around. I have the biggest smile after I've seen him.

Today is my sweet little nephews bday. Nephew through friendship I'm known as Auntie Elli. He's gunna be 2 today. I got to help with my kids in the nursery this week, for a little bit. They make me happy. I love hanging with the kids. It's fascinating to watch them grow and develop.

Anyway I'm going to go and enjoy the rest of my weekend. You all have a good day.