Saturday, July 17, 2010

Born To Walk Away ... Peace Out

In my 24 years of life I have had so much hurt. People walking all over me treating me like shit. I'm done with that. People may see it as me being a bitch but it's my life and I just want good people in my life. Anyone who brings me down I'm saying peace out. I don't need that shit.

A supposed friend of mine yesterday said I don't care about ur "little friends". Fuck you I don't give a shit about the handful of guys u have on the go either. You cause you're own problems. You're dramatic and rude and u bring nothing good to my life ... peace out.

I call my mom and she's like you're calling early you woke everyone up. What's up? Why the fuck would I want to talk to you after you said that to me. Sorry for bothering u mom and being an annoying inconvenience ... Honestly I forgot about the time difference and I said that and she carried on about that. I knew she was awake I just didn't think about the time difference and everyone else who's sleeping ... peace out mom.

The newbie is gone. No surprise ... If I don't walk away then they do ... peace out

My heart still hurts over douche, I miss him. I hate him for making me feel this hurt. I hate him for never giving me a chance. I hate him for the false promises. I'm not dumb. He may have had a slight inclination to see me again but that faded fast. I'm guessing when some other chick paid him some interest. Whatever, you have done nothing for me. The one time where u made me feel beautiful that's all you've done for me. Now over shadowed by the fact u don't want me cause I'm fat. Why do I still try. Cause I fell fast and hard for u that's why, as soon as I saw u I felt it ... you don't want me ... peace out.

To my ex husband ... I accepted you left me. I accepted it when u got a gf. I accept her because she makes u happy and she seems like a nice person. I accept the fact that you want to have a family with her but you never wanted one with me.I let you go because I wanted you to be happy, and I am so happy that you're happy. I don't miss you. Us splitting up was for the best. I'm happier now. I'm grateful for everything you've done for me I wish we could have stayed friends, but you just want to erase me from your life like I never existed ... peace out.

To everyone who has ever said something hurtful to me ... fuck you ... peace out!

Walking away is my specialty ... the amount of times I've moved and had to leave people behind ... I was born to walk away.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Lizzytish,

It is good to hear that you are finally tired of having people treat you like crap and that you are now walking away. Good for you!!

The men you mentioned in your blog aren't worth your time or energy. If they wanted to be with you, they would have made the effort to want to continue dating you and from the sounds of things, they don't want to make the effort. Unfortunately, all you are to them is a booty-call. Good for you for being done with them.

As for friends and family, don't push away too much. Unfortunately when shit hits the fan, sometimes family is all you got.

As for the ex, you can't be friends with everyone and no matter how long you were with him, sometimes it's best not to be friends at all. So many people aren't friends with their exes. Despite being curious, it's not healthy to want to hear about how the ex is. Especially if he is happy and has moved on and wants a new life, and you are still trying to figure things out. Exes are exes for a reason, and if you couldn't get along in the relationship, then why would you want to be friends? Food for thought.

Think positive, be happy, and you will bring in the good people that you are looking for. You are in a new job, and have moved, so stop whining, continue walking away from everything negative and enjoy the positive and good things in life!! You want to inspire people with your blog so do it! :)

Elizabeth said...

Hi,

I don't know if you remember me. I'm Elizabeth, we used to go to school together (middle school at Will Rodgers). I was overweight then too, I remember you because we shared our name! We never really spoke much but I have been reading your blog and want you to know that you are an inspiration. I went through a lot of the same things you did, feeling depressed, eating for comfort, worrying that people were staring, and basically hating myself for being heavy. In college I started walking, starting working really hard (2 jobs), and took public transportation so I had to walk everywhere in downtown Sac! I noticed that I started losing weight without really trying. That made me so encouraged and I started trying really hard to get healthy. I lost 50 pounds in about 8 months by walking about 2-3 miles a day and drinking a TON of water, as well as eating smaller portions. Now I can even run without killing myself! Anyways, I'm rambling....I just wanted you to know that for me it is still a struggle. I also met my husband around this time and he is definitely encouraging when I say I don't want to work-out. Since out marriage I gained 20 pounds back, but now I'm struggling to get it back off....with success! I appreciate seeing what you have gone through...it's incredibly motivating. You are an incredibly strong woman who has been through a hurricane! You not only deserve someone who treats you well and loves you for you, you deserve to love yourself....you are a beautiful woman and I can tell by reading your blog that you have plenty of motivation!!! Thanks for posting and being so open.... I believe in you!

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lizzytish said...

Elizabeth add me to fb :) if u cant find me send me ur e-mail and i'll find u.

Anonymous said...

Lizzytish,

I don't know what to say to you except for how proud I am of you. You've have been through a lot in your life, more than what I believe to be your fair share, but such is life, right?

You've set yourself goals and you're working hard to achieve them. I know this because I've personally experienced your struggles with you, and the wonderment I feel for you after overcoming what you have been through is inspiring; I wish more people could share the same lizzytish that I've grown with, and come love.

As far as your choice in men goes, well... We can't all be perfect. I know some people believe that once you're done, it's over for good. But I believe in being friends your ex's; you were in a relationship for more than one reason, and if the love disappears, there's still the commonality of past experiences shared. Something made you like them before you loved them. If they don't wish to continue to be friends though, then sadly, it's something you will have to accept.

Lizzytish, keep up on your goals and don't ever lose sight of them. Life seems dark at times, but there's always that faint glow off in the distance that you have to focus on. You're changing the world one person at time, don't ever forget that.

One final though to ponder... Every time you interact with someone, you change them; weather it is a "hello" or a nod that someone decides to pass along, or inspiring people to become the best they can be (which it looks like you've done already), you've somehow made an impact on that person.

Keep up your inspiring work, strive to reach your goals and don't ever give up. I love you more than you can imagine.

J

lizzytish said...

Elizabeth, thank you. You have no idea how u touched me, I cried. I appreciate the kind words. I'm sorry he doesn't encourage you, don't do it for him it has to be for u. If he doesn't want to be a part of it, then he's not supporting you, never let him demotivate you. I'm sorry I read it wrong the first time. Don't give up hope, keep pushing urself. The only person who can stop you ... is you. Good luck hun.

Elizabeth said...

Hi there! I can't seem to find you on FB! I would love to add you. Just to clarify, I think I was being confusing in my words.... my husband is an incredible motivator. I think what I meant to say is that he does encourage me....without being pushy! He is trying to lose weight himself and although it is hard I think it is easier when we are doing it together! Even though I have to lose it for myself, it is so pleasant to hear his encouragement at ever little milestone I reach!

lizzytish said...

You can find me under elizabethjacqueline@hotmail.com