Thursday, June 12, 2008

I just want to cry

Who am I kidding I tell myself I am doing good losing weight this is how I fool myself. I'm full of shit. I was doing good I was doing SB again and it was working. Then slowly I became less strict. Now I still weigh less then I did but not by much and I want to lose one stone before I move in fact I want to get to 20 stone which is 280 Now I am 293 so I need to lose 13 pounds by the 3rd of July (this is what I weighed last time I flew and I don't want any problems.

I was not going to go to the gym today. I haven't been doing much. I finished work two weeks ago because I am moving next month and just wanted time to prepare and get some exercise but I can't even bring myself to exercise. I always feel like I am disappointing my husband because i promised 5 days a week. Now I already told him I wasn't going today now I know when he gets home he will ask why I didn't and you know what ... I am going to go to the gym!! I don't want to disappoint him or me and I'm so bored. I feel really full at the moment I ate some enchiladas
:-( they tasted nice but my stomach hurts I made them. I need to get back on track.

So we move July 12th my husband dropped off the passports today. I'm excited to say the least It's finally about time. I have been thinking about getting my tongue pierced anyone have that done? How painful is it? How is everybody lately? Aren't gas prices ridiculous a pack of chicken went up to £10 here and that is only 8 small pieces of chicken breast. Well that's all I have to say I will fill you guys in next week to see if i have kicked my own ass yet


PlumBell said...

Hi Lizzie

I have just sat here for ages reading your blog and i think its brilliant. I started my blog on monday (Takingcontroloffood) as i have been overweight most of my life..I have tried every diet and fad with no avail... now trying the healthy eating, no alcohol diet.. Have not been brave enough to put my weight etc on my blog as i feel so ashamed and i want to say that i think your honesty is brilliant..

PlumBell said...

I am not sure whether or not you recieved my first comment ( first time i have ever left one and my computer crashed) so apologies if i am repeating myself!!
I have st here reading your blog and i think your honesty and openess is brilliant. I am too very overweight and started a blog on monday for my weightloss ( takingcontroloffood) I have not yet been brave enough to display my weight, photo etc , maybe in time i will. Just getting used to the blog and not really sure how it all works yet.. ( any tips would be great)