I feel like Crap

UGH I hate having a permanent illness. I feel like crap. I have done absolutly nothing today. I have no excuse for eating fattening food like potatoe augratton or cheese cake before you know it I will just put on the 10 pounds I lost plus some. I havent even eaten proper meals today just snacking because I'm to achy to stand in front of the stove and stir. I do realise when I am doing the diet that I am not actualy on a no carb diet it is the low carb diet. I just hope I can get my butt to do the last week of phase two on the south beach diet. I fail because I have no will power!!! I am telling myself I will start again tomorrow. Now this is really sad but I am off to bed even though it's not even 5pm yet. It's time for some sleep!!!

Update

OK so here we go. I have been struggling to do the second week of my no carb diet other then bran flakes i haven't had any bread as of yet but it's still morning. I go in occasionally and get weighed at the nurses because i take xenical to aid in weight loss. So I have had a total of 10 pound weight loss. I'm now at around 290 to 292. Added to that i tried on a pair of size 26 pants and low and behold they FIT still a bit tight around that roll of fat at the bottom of my stomach but before i couldn't even get them on. I was wearing a size 30 pants the largest size I have ever worn. I'm still not proud of my size 26 but its a hell of a lot better than a 30!

I had one really great day this week I got weighed and lost 10 pounds then I found out my paper work from the FBI came back so I can now start our Immigration process to Canada. Then I got promoted at work YEAH! So I can now earn a bit extra for that house we are buying in Canada.
I did have a low last night one of my fish died I had 7 and now I have five but one more of them is sick and I expect he will pass today. I know they are only fish but still. I had just bought 3 of the four that died I expect the original 3 were bulling the little fish. Anyway here is another attempt with no carbs for a week. Can we hope for another excellent 10 pound weight drop. GOD PLEASE!!! Maybe I will get my butt down to the gym this weekend we will SEE.

Day 13

So I went to the gym today and did 20 minutes and I pushed my self.

*I weighed myself and since day 1 there has been a loss between 5 and 6 pounds YEAH!

I haven't got back on the diet yet it should be tomorrow. Seeing as my tummy is starting to feel better. Any way I'm proud of myself. I had a dentist apt yesterday it was a killer they cleaned under my gums by my sore tooth and I believe they removed a little bit of the gum as well. Painful added to that I was walking towards the taxi home and I fell in front of everyone and further hurt myself three people rushed over to help me then I ended up standing on the guys foot and almost falling again. Jeez I was mortally Embarrassed 294 pounds falls hard. Well thats all my latest news I thought you all might want to hear its certainly a start!

Day 11

I have been sick I haven't done the diet since early Sunday. It was recommend by a doctor to have some carbs during this illness. I don't want to go into details because it will just gross you out lol. Still feeling a bit rubbish. Hopefully i will be better in a few days and continue where I left off at day 7. How is everyone else doing?

Day 7

I'm going to make this quick cause I'm off to bed. I had a few slices of Carrot cake and some roasted potatoes at my friends for dinner oh and bran flakes for breakfast. I don't feel to guilty since I have been so good this week. Back to work tomorrow I mean with the diet and actual work. I still think I'm doing better then normal so I don't feel to bad. Still lost weigh and will continue to try. Well goodnight and have a good week. I will probably post mid week to keep you all updated. Night Liz

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Day six

I managed to be good for the most part. It's Saturday and that was the real test. For breakfast I had two poached eggs and some baked beans (are baked beans allowed)? For lunch I had black bean soup. For dinner I had some chicken raw green pepper and cucumber with houmous (is houmous allowed)? And I know I broke the rules here but I had 1 chocolate chip cookie and 3 glasses of wine Eek! I am feeling the effects of the wine a bit tipsy to be honest. I hope none of you are disappointed. As long as I can limit myself I am OK. Tomorrow I was invited to someones house for dinner so I am bringing carrot cake I know I will have a small piece of cake but I still have lost weight. I didn't manage to make it to the gym but did do a tad bit of walking. Well I hope I can be strong tomorrow and not succumb to carbs. Goodnight and have a good weekend. BE STRONG!

Day 5 Continued

I made it through day 5 with success! I struggled a bit at dinner time when I got hungry. If it wasn't for my husband supporting me and giving me strength I would have caved by now. So I just want to say Thanks to him for helping me get through this struggle of no Carbs for 2weeks. It sounds silly I know but it's hard. 9 days left to go :-)